That’s that.

So I had a bunch more tests and surgery, which I’m not going to get into but was hell.

After all that, we were told my eggs are not viable because of my age.  I’m not sure why they bothered to do all the bloodwork and tests to see if I could get pregnant on my own, so we feel like more time and money was wasted.

So that’s that.  I guess I will leave this blog up, but that’s the end.

TTC Updates

As you can see, I have been away for awhile as until recently nothing drastically had changed regarding my TTC journey.

As I mentioned in my first TTC post, I did change doctors during the summer because the OBGYN’s nurse was completely incompetent.   My doctor would give me a 3 month refill on my medication and regularly checked my thyroid levels every three months, just to make sure they were optimal, but the nurse never kept up with the calendar correctly and continually wanted me to come in every month in order to get my refill.  The drive was an hour long, and then they would make me wait an hour, just to be taken back to get the blood draw.  After this happening twice, I was done.

I did a lot of research starting with the hospital I would prefer to give birth in and found a terrific doctor AND staff that I have now.  It’s closer.  I never, ever wait more than five minutes for any appointment.  The phlebotomist even takes her own appointments, so no waiting to be handed from one person to another.

I did two rounds of clomid with my new doctor, and the pain and bleeding I was experiencing during my period and in between continued to increase.  He did bloodwork, and it all came out stellar.  So then it came time to do a sono, and I have fibroids, again.  If my original OBGYN had listened to me when this started a year ago, things may have been drastically different.  She basically wasted a year of us TTC as well as 5 rounds of clomid.

My OBGYN recommended we go to the fertility specialist to get a consultation as well as the fertility specialist performing the fibroid removal as they take great care in preserving your fertility.  We have an appointment scheduled in January, so that is where we are at right now. ❤



Tidying and Minimalism

Organizing and minimizing are really big all over the internet world right now.  I think many are feeling overwhelmed, so many are searching for a way to simplify.  We are busy with kid’s activities, cleaning, social media, politics and just the every day stuff that has to be done.

For us, we had been contemplating moving to a larger house for years.  We have a smallish house at least by today’s standards with a minimal amount of storage, but it is just the two of us right now.  But I am determined to make it work, for now.  Even though we moved with a fairly minimal amount of stuff, that stuff grew and grew and grew.  You always accumulate some stuff when buying a home to take care of that home.  I have a very generous family that started giving us tons of stuff to help fill our home.  My parents also kept over 20 boxes and bags of stuff from my childhood! Much kept in an attic that hits well over 100º for over 35+ years.  And then there are hobbies, oh the hobbies! And when our girls moved and took everything with them, we had two empty rooms to fill!  After 12 years of living here, the stuff became over whelming, and eventually I was wondering where all this stuff came from!

For years, I have been watching a lot of cleaning and organizing videos on YouTube, and every year I get the tidy bug and do a general clean out, but then one of my favorite YouTuber’s, Jen from Pretty Neat Living did a video about the book  The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering and Organizing by Marie Kondo about 2 years ago.  I bought it, read it, loved it and started the process soon after.  The simple technique of using the question, “does it spark joy?”, made a huge difference in helping me to let go.

Marie Kondo’s book is about being tidy more than being minimalist, but it can help lead to it. While watching Youtube videos on tidying, I naturally came across minimalism.  It’s kinda hard to miss, and it struck the same general chord with me.  I’m tired of taking care of all the stuff.  It’s makes it hard to clean and stay tidy.

Am I a minimalist?  I like to say minimalism is a very personal thing.  What is minimalist for one, is not necessarily minimalist for another. I don’t like all the hate that goes around in the community.  Personally, I know I would never been happy living out of a backpack, but there are plenty of people who  love it!  Would I like to be at more at some point?  Yes.  I would love to live in a tiny home eventually.

Letting go of the guilt of holding onto things because someone gave them to you or passed them down has been a huge help, because that is where a lot of my “stuff” came from.  Unwanted gifts can be hard, but if they bring me no joy then I do not need it.  Like I said previously, my parents saved over 20 boxes of stuff from my child hood.  I took pictures of things that I wanted to keep memories and then discarded.  Most of the clothes, blankets, and other organic type items fell apart due to age and heat.

Kon Marie has you start with clothing, but clothing is hard for me because I’m super picky.  But I am down to my side of our shared closet and a dresser, but I still have some work to do there. My biggest problem was keeping clothes for work, and I still have some just in case I go back to a formal job.  Just in case, is still a problem for me.  I don’t follow trends, so I’m not concerned that clothes go out of style.  Many minimalists wear the same color/shades.  I have worn mostly only black for 30+ years, so at least I have that going for me.  LOL.

I donated 450 items last year, and I have cut way back on my spending which has stopped the influx of stuff!  I am also much more intentional about the purchases I do make.  Instead of opting for something on sale or cheaper than the item I would really like or would last longer, I wait until I have the money to purchase the better item.  I also find that when I wait that I may really no longer need or want the item.  Amazon Prime is my Target for some, but I put things on lists and wait to see if I really want/need before purchasing.

Have you caught the minimalism or KonMari bug? ❤


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AIP (autoimmune protocol)

AIP or autoimmune protocol is an elimination diet to find possible intolerance to foods as well as adding nutrient dense foods to your diet.   You remove foods for a certain amount of time, heal your gut and very gradually add back foods into your diet to determine any reactions.  Reactions can be mild to severe, so some may tolerate foods once or twice a week, or they find that they need to be removed for good. You can read a more detailed information about AIP by The Paleo Mom aka Dr. Sarah Ballantyne, PhD.

I started AIP in June 2016 shortly after being diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis. The OBGYN who discovered my condition said she suspects the food we consume contribute to auto-immune triggers.  Dr. Amy Myers  talks about how gluten sensitivity causes leaky gut, inflammation, and molecular mimicry, which can trigger auto-immune conditions.

I bought two informational/cookbooks on AIP to help us get started, but that is not even needed.   Autoimmune Paleo Cookbook by Mickey Trescott and The Healing Kitchen by Alaena Haber MS OTR and Sarah Ballantyne PhD.  Honestly,  you can find all the information online with loads of recipes and support, I just found it easier to have all my references on hand in one place to begin with.  We had already been eating whole foods for some time and limited eating out, so it helped us make the conversion.

It is completely up to you when you begin the reintroduction phase of AIP.  About six months after I started AIP, I became very ill in November with something stomach related and could not keep anything down for over 24 hours.  Although, the ER believed it to be viral related, it was mostly like Hashi related.  Anyways, none of my regular foods even remotely sounded appealing, and knowing I would never touch gluten again, toast and crackers were off the table. Rice was my next option and thankfully, I tolerated it just fine and keep it in my diet to this day.  Rice is one grain many successfully reintroduce. I have reintroduced a large amount of foods, most fruit and veggies including nightshades with no problems, but I have found that I need to limit corn and cheese.

I can’t explain well enough to tell you how much a difference it has made in the way I feel.  It’s not a quick fix.  Well, it wasn’t for me anyways.  It took a good six months before I felt good again.  I don’t have the debilitating fatigue that I once did.  The major anxiety I once had is gone.  My thyroid numbers have been stable for over six months, and stay in optimum range.  The inflammation has dramatically decreased as I lost 30 pounds, and I no longer have plantar fasciitis, numbness in my legs and my carpal tunnel has improved.

Also, to help my healing process, I removed several stressors from my life as much as possible.  I meditate and do yoga.  Before I was diagnosed I was weight lifting, and while I felt good at the time, it became very apparent that it was over stressing my adrenals. For some people with thyroid problems, heavy workouts are too harsh.

I also take Levothyroxine, and so far it works for me. Some do better on a desiccated thyroid medication, but I hesitate to switch since Levo is working for me for now.

I will do another post on Hashimoto’s, but wanted to get this out there for people who are looking to try something new to help heal their bodies.    Always speak with your doctor before making any changes. ❤

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TTC Favorites

My current favorites related to trying to conceive is somewhat limited, but I would like to share.  I am not a doctor, please consult your doctor before trying anything new.  As always, I encourage you to do your own research and pick what is best for you.  Please share your own favorites below.

I have taken several brands of high-end vitamins, but these are my favorites. For prenatal and DHA, I chose Best Nest Wellness.   Since starting AIP, I become very aware of all the extras added to everything we consume and finding clean vitamin and supplements can be very hard, if not impossible.

  •  I will be adding to this list as I see fit and things change. 🙂


The Best Nest Wellness Prenatal* is great because the ingredients are high quality, and they do not bother my stomach because I have gastritis and trouble with digestion.  You only have to take one!  It has methylfolate instead of folic acid,  as well as methylcobalamin for B12.  It includes probiotics and digestive enzymes, which helps make for a happy tummy.  It also includes three organic herbs: chamomile, red raspberry leaf, and ginger.  They are free of artificial colors and flavors, sugar, sweeteners, preservatives, gluten, soy, yeast, fish/shellfish, nuts, GMOs, and dairy/lactose.   They are manufactured in a GMP certified facility in the USA.  They also have a iodine/iron free formula.

I like their DHA because it is not semi-synthetic like many brands on the market.  It highly purified and is mercury free as well as free of artificial colors and flavors, sugar, sweeteners, artificial preservatives, gluten, soy, yeast, nuts, GMOs, and dairy/lactose.

My husband wanted to start taking a multi-vitamin.  While our diet is very good, we have a limited amount of foods that we eat.  I suggested the Best Nest Wellness Men’s Multi, and he has been very happy with it.  And like the prenatal, there is only one to take and do not contain any added fillers or additives.  It also includes a probiotic and digestive enzymes as well as a fruit and vegetable blend.

Because I have gastritis, I’ve been taking digestive enzymes for five years.  The best I have found are the Enzymedica Digest™ Pregnancy.  After 4.5 years, I have little to no heartburn or stomach pain!  These also include ginger which can help with nausea. And they contain no fillers!  If I do get a touch of heartburn, I reach for Maty’s Indigestion Relief.  It is all natural and safe during pregnancy.


My favorite bloggers A Good Kinda Crazy,  Holistic Squid, MamaBear MartinMommypotamus,  and Pregnant Chicken

My favorite YouTube mama’s are Darci Isabella, Natural Thrifty Mom, Pretty Neat Living, The Mommy Archives, and Vasseur Beauty.

Also, I have been following Mama Natural aka Genevieve Howland on social media for years.  She recently came out with The Mama Natural Week-by-Week Guide to Pregnancy and Childbirth.  Easy to read and lovely to look at, it is probably the only guide you really need.

Beautiful Babies by Kristen Michaelis was recommended by a friend.  It is a very good, short read that helps with nutritional information from fertility to babies first foods.

To track my cycles and all the fun things that come along with fertility, I use the Ovia Fertility App.  It can help you track your ovulation and lets you record everything to your periods, mood, symptoms and everything in between. ❤

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TTC’ing at age 42

I am 42, and my husband is 44.  I have two step-children that are grown including 2 grand babies.  We’ve been trying to get pregnant for 6 months now.  I never wanted children of my own until I hit 40, and DH was finally on board.  I have PCOS, so I’m currently taking my third round of Clomid.  I was also diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis in June 2016.

I recently changed OBGYN’s, and I really like my new doctor as well as all the staff.  They even have a plebotomist and sono on site, so no worry about going to another facility.  He was also okay with prescribing my thyroid medication as my previous OBGYN had done. She found the Hashi’s and never saw a reason for me to see an endocrinologist.  If it does become a problem for my doctor to manage, then he will refer me to an endo, but for now I have mostly good days and my numbers are fine.

I’ve been managing my Hashi’s fairly well with Levo and using the auto-immune protocol diet.  I’ve been reintro-ing foods since November 2016, but I have had little reactions so far.  I need to limit dairy and corn, but I’ve had nightshades and rice with no reactions.  I may go back to a stricter AIP as I felt better and was managing my weight better.  I also think that it had positive impact on my fertility.

My 21 day tests have been hit or miss so far.  Feb – positive, Mar – negative, April – positive, May – negative.  The new doctor and I agreed not to wait much longer before trying other fertility treatments.  I will do one or two more rounds of Clomid before seeing a fertility specialist.  I also want to look into having acupuncture done as I’ve heard lots of positives about it.

Only one family member knows that we are TTC simply because we do not need or want the added stress, as well as any disappointment that may come along especially for our older family members.  A hand full of friends know, but our closest friends, that are also TTCing, are moving across the country very soon.  We don’t speak about it, so it’s been a lonely journey so far.

So here I am, blogging about it instead.  ❤